I DON'T HAVE WEEKEND HOMEWORK EITHER!!!

i am so relieved it's not funny. ahahahahahahaahaha...

andrew's gone to his ball. when he was at home, he didn't seem so excited. in fact, he looked slightly miserable. it's like "BAH, i gotta take a shower. SIGH! i gotta do my hair. and why do i have to wear this suit dammit! oh well, at least my tie is an obscene shade of lime green."

i think it's gonna rain tomorrow. i like rain. my camera's kinda retarded though. i don't know what that has to do with rain.

BEWARE SARAH.. thy picture shalt be exposedeth to everyone of thy friends(eth)!!

i never know where to put all the -eths.

gotta go youth.

i have no homework this weekend. can you believe it?

okay maybe i do. A BIT, compared to the last 6 weeks where i had a mountain of work to do. but WHO CARES! after slogging for 6 weeks, i deserve a good weekend. cleaning up my mess isnt part of it.

word: bull
synonyms: balderdash, baloney, bilge, bunkum, claptrap, crap, hogwash, rubbish, trash

the thesaurus is so interesting. and no, i'm not a nerd.

the happy song truly lives up to its name.

i wanna go to youth. cant wait, actually.

PHOTOS! i'm gonna go on a photo frenzy tmr. thats if my camera doesnt die on me. i will FORCE myself to take pictures of people tmr instead of random things and scenic pictures. (note: clouds this morning were absolutely GORGEOUS.) i absolutely suck at taking photos of people though. but i love this one shot i took. it actually looks nice.


all the guys are smiling, there's eddy, jon, weiwei and his plate full of chicken bones (he whacked like 10 wings or smth), seb trying to act cute, and leon with his classic look and fringe. and all feet and heads are in.

OKAY, so the lighting (sunset) and worthy subject material played a huge part, but i still like that shot. man, i've gotta stop admiring it.

i'm hearing my friend rant about all her scandalous affairs with her crush. i'm still thankful i have none of that.

praise Him under open skies, everything breathing praising God; in the company of all who love the King

SELF-RANTING IN PROCESS.

happiness is short-lived - agreed?

would you rather have one extremely happy night and all the days that follow become really crap and just a stark difference from that burst of happiness? i think its cruel to do that. cause your bad days will feel worse than they originally did. and if you've never been uber happy you wouldnt hope for it. but..

i know everything happens for a reason. and i know that He is in control of it all. and that comforts me no matter what. but if you just knew why things happened that way, it'd be much easier to swallow. but knowing that ultimately, God is in charge just makes even the worst situation bearable.

i wanna shut myself outta this world. human interaction seems to be pulling me down. i wanna go back and sit down at a cafe and just go on and on and on about everything i need to with avril, have mini worship sessions in the bus without caring about anyone, sitting at hq with michelle and just chilling out.. going to watch gigs with dan at the esplanade, fighting to pay for the bill with jon and avril as we all wave 50 dollar bills.. shoving jon into a neoprint machine and traumatizing the daylights outta him, sitting at starbucks hogging the nice sofas and drinking non-caffiene drinks.. all the things i fantasize about.

what i really want now, is to have one of my rant-over-waffle conversations with avril. "so far away; too far, sar". painful, but true. i cannot tell you how sucky it is to be miles and miles away from the person you wanna talk to. distance - if it doesnt break, it makes. true, it did make, and i'm thankful for that. gotta wait another 8 more months..

"Praise be to God, the God of all comfort..." -2 Cor 1:3

calm the storms that drench my eyes, and dry the tears still flowing

i'm extremely happy. can you tell i'm extremely happy? because i am, extremely happy. its the happiest i've felt for such a long time and i'm hyper and happy and i dont wanna sleep. cause when i wake up tmr i dont think i'm gonna be this happy. i think.

i'm extremely happy. have i said that already? boingboingboingboingboing.

and no, i havent gotten a boyfriend.

i've got heaven on the inside of me
peace and joy, God has set me free
heaven is a reality
abundant life flows outta me
i've got a smile on my face
a glide in my stride
i'm tasting His grace and i'm walking by faith
i've got heaven on the inside of me
i've got heaven flowing out of me
i'm bringing heaven into this world

i'm extremely happy. =) hahhahaha

dunno what i was thinking.

all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

the view that presented itself to me while i was suffering from a lack of inspiration while doing english.

SO PRETTY RIGHT. i couldnt believe my eyes. this bright orange thing flutters in front of me (the real miracle here is me actually noticing it..) and i'm just staring out the window going WOW WOW WOW. (you see, i only see a really nice butterfly in photos) and so i snap outta my gaze and grab the cam and set it to max zoom and snap lots of shots, spending half the time trying to locate the butterfly thru the screen and finally focusing. and out of 31 shots, some of which dont even feature the orange thing, i've got SOME that arent that bad.

see! proof that i suck. even the shots above are blur. doesnt do any justice to the pwetty butterfly at all. sorry for substandard photos, only have the photographer to blame.

but i love it when i see such pretty stuff. like how every morning when i walk to school, i always hear birds chirping and see them flying overhead in the clear blue sky. love it love it love it.

i remember when i saw this family of ducks. i started jumping up and down going "AWW SO CUTE!!!" too bad i hadn't realized the full zooming potential of my camera then. oh well. at least the image is SHARP. or reasonably sharp anyway.

this is my Father's world =)

in a mumblejumble of emotions, i'm lost in the confusion.
why do i always feel like this on sundays??

reminds me of the time i got lost in changi airport on one of those random trips to the airport cause we always found it fascinating. i got lost, or rather my dad lost me. didnt ask for help. too scared? i dont know. help approached me and shortly after i wasnt lost anymore.

i wonder if help's gonna find me now.

i love jars of clay.

downpour on my soul
splashing in the ocean, i'm losing control
dark sky all around
i can't feel my feet touching the ground

i wanna hug a penguin. anyone wanna be my penguin? =)

i want this to happen for me.

yet another 'thoughtful' insight to a photo that was taken by yours truly. this was the sky ytd, around 5pm. somehow i think the sun is the most accurate depiction of the glory of God, though nowhere near. the brightness is so often blinding, and you cant look it directly in the eye. the sun rays reach all corners of the earth, minus the shadows (sin, in this case, again.) and it just illuminates the whole place. maybe when Jesus comes again and i have my superpimp camera i'll take a shot that looks just like this, or maybe it'll be so bright that all you take is a sheet of white. i dont know. i'll tell you when that happens (if i'm not already lying in my grave, that is)

had the urge to take photos ytd. sky was irresistable. wanted some more red fireball-like cloud shots, but i was eating dinner and the light didnt really penetrate through the layers of clouds. got some shots of nice flowers though, finally managed to work my way around the digi cam to make it FOCUS and well. didnt work too well, some were really blur..but an achievement NONETHELESS! (just let me dwindle a little in self-delusion..)

a flower for your vanity, a penny for your thoughts..

this was taken at bluegum on saturday, seconds after my camera started flashing the no battery sign after 2 certain individuals returned from their routine friday evening walks. *glares*

poor attempt at focusing using a digi cam. you have no idea how many times i had to refocus it.

i like this shot. so maybe the bin might be in the way, but it looks photoshopped. ahh i just like it.

here today and gone tomorrow..

WHY. why must my brother and cousins be reasonably GOOD-LOOKING, have pretty outstanding PERSONALITIES, great CHARACTER and this ATTRACTIVENESS about them that make just about all the 14/15 year old rossy girls either a) like them, b) liked them, or c) gonna like them.

it was funny though HAHA. traumatizing but funny. i laughed in a painful sorta way. and why are the people we hang around GUY CRAZY and fangirl-like and BEST OF ALL, target their friend's brother/cousin/whatever. isnt it always the guys who are kept away from the girls and not the other way round?! tiring fending them off, esp when hounded by requests of "sarah you've got to introduce your brother/cousin to me one day!! :D:D:D"

my bro is not gonna hear about this. esp the potentially ego-boost-to-the-sky incident.

you guys, you give me so much work to do. *eyes menacingly*

to turn away and not become another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the ocean, more abundant than the tears of a world embracing every heartache

nothing that you do could make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done could make Him close the door
because of His great love, He gave His only son
everything was done so you would come

i wanna live under a rock and hiatus there. or dig a hole in the ground and hibernate. watch sunset, then stargaze, then catch the sunrise, with some awesome people. (i always found it amazing how i can doze off in class or during movies but never stargazing. i still maintain its the manmade vs natural thing) i always wondered how great it would be if the time we spent at school was actually spent going to church. like, church-school kinda thing, only it would rock much more. you have bible study, worship class, fellowship.. man. i've gotta go to YWAM one of these days and experience it for myself.

unlimited wants, limited resources. now then, how shall we solve this economic problem? what are the opportunity costs involved? (lemme try to remember this..giving up a want of similar monetary value to satisfy another want?) living under a rock = wasting time i could use to make money? (lousy comparison) staying up all night = sacrificing sleep? (lousyyy.) going to church instead of school? ROCK ON. brain, you are incredible.

blogging is educational. helps you revise your work and study for your test. not like its gonna help me much for my econs test tmr. oh well. we can only hope.

people need the Lord. dont see how they can live without Him. i cant.

unlimited wants, limited resources = scarcity = need for choice = opportunity costs = unsatisfied wants = GREEDY PEOPLE.

told you i'm gonna fail it.

iwantphotographytherapy.

i have no self control.

step into the house and whip out the english, the science, and the maths. plonk my ass on the chair and start writing. finish the maths and get off the ass. slice an apple into quarters - what a healthy snack option. ass goes back down on chair. gets back up - can't take the workload. brain malfunctions. play all i want is you on guitar. hand cramps. back to the homework. no, wait, spots Kraft EasyMac on top of microwave. 5.30. should i? should i not? will spoil dinner apetite - MAYBE NOT. shouldn't. don't NEED to eat. ah what the hell. why shouldn't i? Kraft EasyMac gone in five minutes. three of those minutes was cooking time. mum comes home. SUSHI. eat eat eat eat eat. wasabi rocks. it also hurts. WOOHOO!! apple pie with cream. mmm... so nice.

and i haven't even had dinner yet.

i love this shot. among the peacefulness.. all the white, the red stains the picture. i liken the red to sin and white to the love, grace and mercy that comes from our Heavenly Father. how do i say it? our sin..no matter how big or small it is, will always stand out from the lovely, peaceful picture, even though we try to make it blend in by covering up our sin, making excuses. yet the love, grace and mercy that comes from our Father is so abundant that no matter how great your sin is, there's always gonna be so much more love around. look at how much white there is compared to red. sin tarnishes the relationship. yet, if the picture did not have the blood element in it, it wouldnt be all that great a shot. similarly, you cant entirely take sin out of our lives, what we can do is try not to sin, keep the amount of blood to a bare minimum.

did you get that? i cant put my thoughts to words, you'll either have to decipher it or just ignore it altogether. how did such a simple picture get so complicated?!

anyway.

i'm fantasizing about having the only beach front home with lots of palm trees to tie my hammock round and a jetty to sit out into the ocean without getting wet. yeaa. that's my dream. i think your vocal cords are the one of the best musical instruments around. it's with you 24/7, dont have to do anything else except open your mouth and sing. (singing in tune and in time is a different matter, but we shan't go into it) its portable. it doesnt require much skill, and its just one of the best God-given gifts we have. to me, at least. no practise needed. it's just..there.

i'm in a sing-a-ling-a-ling mood. one of the reasons why i like being home alone. sometimes in my room with the door shut i'll sing along to music fairly softly, then when i get outta my room my mum goes, "eh sa-ah, when you suddenly sing at night quite scary leh." thanks mum! make sure the next time we move in somewhere the walls are 10 times thicker. then you cant hear me singing and i wont hear you screaming =) [i'm really kidding]

the computer is becoming a bane.

i dont wanna go down south for easter..i'd much rather spend it in church. i'll be praying uber hard that we've got no accomodation. i dont fancy doing anything else over easter except sit down and really reflect and ponder on what good friday and easter sunday mean. then again, i'm the only one with this mindset. oh well. say a lil' prayer, to Jesus you'll be right. songs we sang at sunday school. innocently cute, simple yet true.

i still havent satisfied my dessert crave. starting to go away..

ever kept something to yourself so you wont make someone else feel bad?

ytd at choir pastor shirley struck a point that i hadn't noticed. she mentioned how people applauded the choir for the performance, and how the focus had somewhat shifted from God to us. which hit a pit in me, cause it was in one way or another, true. the reason why we can sing so well despite our small number is not just because we're good. we screwed up practise before the performance. you couldnt even hear a tinge of the second part. ytd during the performance it was good. it was no doubt the Holy Spirit in us that empowered us to sing that well. all things come from God, yet why do we give Him no credit at all? all glory be unto Him, we have absolutely nothing to boast of.

it's sarah's workyourbuttoff day.

it's not about me, as if You should do things my way
You alone are God and i surrender to Your ways

i have been absolutely productiveless this afternoon it's not too funny. theory's half-done (i have no idea how to do the next bit), law&com is heading nowhere, science is just purely gay, and i really really feel like eating dessert.

something nice, sweet, mouth-watering.. cept it doesnt really give you that effect when you have a stupid ulcer that is strategically above your braces. rargh.

this week has been pretty positive. the 2 days without the comp have turned my life around (somewhat, not that dramatic as it sounds) and it is good. this week looks pretty positive too (despite the fact that out of the 6 assignments i currently have on hand, 4 are due..) i dont know. maybe its just me hahahha.

i've got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart

i should be horrendously pissed off by now actually. this is random. i think i might resort to using salt after all. and regret it for the rest of my life.

btw. the choir rocked today. as always (: carried out yet another exploitation act on..jon ;p [good playing, considering you learnt the song in minutes, basically, thats just about how bloomin' talented you are. and i'm not being sarcastic here..in case i sound like i am]

I AM NUTS! and i dont feel like doing anything at all. i feel like i'm on holiday. and the weather was nice today (:

i still want my dessert!!!

i meant to do that last post on scotch over here... dont know what happened. sigh~ blurness continues.

i heard on the news that three boys, all under eleven years old, were killed in a train accident. they weren't even on the train.

ok, so twenty minutes before the accident, there were reports of some boys throwing stones at the train. and the kids were playing on the tracks.

don't they watch TV?

olive oyl used to always get tied onto train tracks by bluto and the popeye would have to chug down a couple of cans of spinach before saving her, usually by stopping the train with his bare hands.

err.. okay... i can see how they might have thought they were invincible.

you never really realize the impact that this kind of thing has on people until something like this happens to someone close to you. seriously, i get how sad this incident is, but i don't understand how the parents and the family feel. because it's not me.

cause in the end, you only truly understand the pain of others when you've been through the same thing.

i got outta the shower a few days ago and saw the sky painted in front of me. i grabbed my camera and ran outta the house to grab some shots for 5 min, before the scene faded. that's like how i felt after choir on monday, when i walked out into the blanket of stars that just danced overhead. d'ya know how pretty it was? nothing to obstruct your view, i could just lay there all night admiring them and pondering on issues that are worth pondering. man. i'd just lay on my hammock and stone all night long.

when i build my own house, i'd make a glass ceiling. otherwise, i'd have a balcony. otherwise, i'll have a hammock. otherwise..i'll have a mat. otherwise i'll climb on top of my roof and stargaze. otherwise i'll drive out and find a nice spot in a beach or somewhere, nice and quiet, find a nice rock and stay under it in the day and just chill out at night. yeaaa. that's what i'll do.

amazing eh. i never seem to fall asleep when stargazing, though many may argue its boring, there's 'nothing to see' [casper: "what star?"], maybe i'm filled with fascination and amazement that i can never get enough of the night sky. whereas in school.. sleeping in class has crept back into my system. i had to keep my eyes open in english while watching the show [didnt want a repeat of the chocolate war incident..] and in s&e i really couldnt take it anymore after previous attempts at keeping my eyes open failed miserably, i took a power nap. functioned pretty well after that.. dont look at me, its the heat, i promise...

the things you do when you are deprived of internet. surprisingly i wasnt dying, unlike my brother who was pretty desperate after just one day without the internet.

ey, apparently will and moey are going to the d&d together XD and they said we made a good couple hahah. unfortunately, our dear kimberley is highly sought after, isnt she? *winkwink* dont douse me with silver nitrate in the darkroom tmr..

i can only imagine when all i will do is forever, forever worship You

memories from youth camp dec '05
All of me, none of God; More of me, less of God
Less of me, more of God; None of me, all of God

friday was a day of quotes, such as..

"i always imagine a boy's first crush..he punches her." -eng teacher

me: "hey kor, jon's perving on some girl dancing in her room."
ken: "i know"

-3 sec of digesting what those 2 words implied-
-jon & i burst out laughing XD-

sunday was a day of understatements, such as..

"today the weather is very hot."
WRONG! it was stinkingly hot [still an understatement]. i could just about emphatize with the gingerbread in the oven, almost pictured myself as one of them.

"ooh gingerbread doesnt look good."
WRONG AGAIN! okay so maybe it didnt turn out that bad, but still, i wasted 3 hours of my afternoon doing smth that didnt turn out fantastically well. at least someone else did the cleaning up.

bla. i hate chem. i told my friend and she was like:
"quite fun"
"?"
"just try la"
"chem?"
"DUH"
"DUHUDHDUHDUHDUHGAWEFHWJADW"

i'm using a pen as a hairclip. i used my mouth to keep my hair outta the way all through service today. whatever i bake tmr had better turn out good. i hope my dad didnt spoil the mixer when he tried to knead his roti prata.

random string of thoughts. talking to all 3 of my best pals in singapore last night was amazing. remembering the fun times during the hols and the fun times to come was awesome. its almost like you could transport yourself back into that time and relive it altogether. it's still fresh and crisp in my memory.

today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you.
the song that kickstarted our sing-on-the-bus session. man. that was absolutely rocking. i would do that 10 times over.

who am i, that the voice that calmed the sea would call out through the rain and calm the storm in me?

my computer hung the last time i tried to blog on two guys and a missing girl.

i hate when that happens.

i also hate when i download a song and it says i can't play it because i do not have a license. i also hate it when i finally realize that i do not have a license and have to cancel all my other downloads.

oops. gotta go.

just did this personality test and i must say it's pretty accurate. takes damn long to do it, but its worth a go XD

my results

the test


tell me what you got! =)