first of all, we were betting on your head and feet, in case you were desperate to know. karina gained ownership of your head after i lost the bet [i bet you mrs roberts used up all her leave thats why she turned up despite the soaring temperatures] and karina doesnt have a sense of time, which left me with your feet. for the rest of your headless and feetless torso, we decided to be nice to will and moey and let them take over (:

isnt it fun!! but seriously, you guys really looked..together-ish. moey was just the third party.. dont kill me for saying that. we have an IMPLIED freedom of speech here in australia okay.

i want to go to antarctica [before all the ice melts]!!! to experience 24hours of sunlight and 24hours of night!! i want i want i want. to also scream at the ocean, though i do not feel like blowing up now [wont say that later though, after i start though the pile of work i have] and i'll have to go and see a volcano soon to confirm that maybe i'm not the most fiery and erratic thing on this earth.

yeaaa. one of those dreams that i know i'm too poor to fufill. oh well. screaming seems cheap enough.

YOU KNOW WHAT? its great having relatives just 2 streets away. i was walking home in the heat [that doesnt seem to affect me much nowadays, i just cringe initially when i step out into the open suana for 1 minute before i become immune to it] and halfway into my journey, i see a familiar car drive up in front of me, and LO AND BEHOLD! its u.weekoon plus the 2 kids.

my savior(s).

so i got spared from walking home. man, its been so long since i've got picked up from school. especially nice when you dont expect it x) my brother has GOT TO learn how to drive soon. but first he's gotta get his Ls. and hm. jon should learn too. never hurts to have more drivers. dont wanna count on my bro, he'll probably be out chauffering nat or smth.

when i learn to drive and actually have my own car, i'll go drive far out and chill. and no one would know where i am!! not that they'll even realize i'm missing in the first place.. wonderful aint it.

okay time to bury myself in work. fantastic eh, why are they so MERCILESS? GIVE US YEAR10s SOME TIME TO SLACK cause i know we're definitely not gonna get that for the next 2 years. good that the psychology score dropped. to think my mum wants me to do law or MEDICINE. what a joke.

i feel like singing. i was singing faruxue at jane's just now, and she told me to shut up. how lovely. i also feel like converting to my malaysian accent, so i will speak like all the chinese ah beng's back there.

just now i listen to 'redeemer' by planet shakers. so nice man. i wanna sing it loudly so that everybody can hear me, but it's nearly 10pm oledi. later all my neighbours ask their 'kakia' to come beat me up.

you know what? sarah and karina were being very stupid during lunch today. so damn hot and they sit there laughing like monkeys. i don't care if they laugh - laugh until they cry also i don't care - but maybe i care if they look like they gonna choke la... but they were laughing AND LOOKING AT ME, MOEY AND WILLIAM, who were sitting opposite them.

means they talking about us la. aiyo... liddat also cannot work out. no hope man.

i have no idea what i'm talking about. then in inggeris ah, karina go and hit me on the head for no reason and sarah was talking bull about how she owns my feet. and i dint understand so i very ngong ngong liddat in the middle of them. and they two laugh laugh laugh and i still blur blur one there. so bad they jio me.

good thing my skin very thick so i'm not so easily sia soi-ed. also very hard to make me cry one. so sad hoh.

rargh. index of terms:
ah beng - hoon
oledi - already [serious. this is how they pronounce it]
kakia - little people [literally means foot people]
liddat - like that
inggeris - this is how malaysians spell english
ngong ngong - stupid stupid
blur blur - work it our yourself la
jio - kacau i.e. bother
sia soi - embarrassed

another week has just passed and its amazing how i got past it. life is getting annoyingly routinic [self-concocted word] and i feel like a robot going through the motion of everyday stuff.

terrible, i know.

tonight we're going for a feast at ciao italia, courtesy of my bro. apparently he's paying for the meal if it doesnt cost anything more than $400. PHWOAR! talk about being generous! but yes, it should be pretty good..getting squashed in there. and tmr i'll have to work again, and sunday after church i'll have to sacrifice my slack afternoon to go where? library. to do what? RESEARCH. i'm starting to think its a mistake taking law&com.. ho well.

oh yeah. there was the stink fight in school today [please dont kill me for coming up with such a stupid sounding name, i'm pretty tired] where the guys forcibly made the girls smell like themselves. thank goodness i was the ONLY one spared, i always knew people daren't touch me..

you're waiting for the axe to fall
can't you see it lying on the ground?

collide - good song x)

no worries, jon, "two guys and a missing girl" will not die down because there will always be ME here to keep it alive. it's THE place for complaining about all things from wesley college to shit-coloured chemicals. don't worry if you didn't understand that. inside joke.

ANYWAY, i've decided that the english teacher isn't that bad. nonono, she's still damn annoying and bloody demanding, but at least she knows what she's doing [even if no one else does]. it helps that she's severely affected by the heat and tends to let us off easy when it's gets too hot [i.e. anything over 26 degrees celsius, I.E. pretty much all of summer].

hey, heard jon's account got hacked. SCARY SHIT MAN. hackers can get into your msn account and start spewing crap to all your contacts. no, actually, the worst part is having to create a new account, and having to ADD EVERYONE FROM THE OLD ACCOUNT INTO THE NEW ACCOUNT. i hate that. i hate adding people. i always get people to add me.

okay... what else. hmm.. i read neil gaiman's 'american gods'. it's awesome. some bits are a little weird and slightly freaky, but it's totally awesome. you won't like it, harry, it's not your kind of thing, trust me. hmm.. did you guys used to read PUDDLE LANE books? i remember i used to. oh man, those were..... so difficult to read at the time. it's probably cheesecake for me now...

i especially remember this puddle lane story i read about a great dane. i remember the cover was dark blue [which means it's one of the harder and higher level books or something like that] and it had a picture of a dark shady street with a dog on the front. however, i don't actually remember what the story was about.

i just remember that i got seriously freaked out.

men in the bushes.

i've never been more freaked out.

today there was a notice going through school about something. the last few lines caught our attention and alarmed us slightly. "when you're walking to and from school, please walk with your friends and other rossmoyne students..."

so we go round asking people what the notice was about. the first guy we asked said it was about some girl getting raped [proved to be rubbish]. the second said it was a stalker [stirred the paranoia in us] and the last one, who happens to be amy and the one which sounds the most credible, said smth about 3 guys in a car trying to lure a girl into the car on the way to school.

FREAKED.

honestly, at least kim walks home with her sis and bro, but I walk home alone. mann. its rare occasions like these that i wish my bro was walking home with me too =/

it's time to thank God for my [less than] mediocre looks.

my mum is definitely not hearing about this. lets just keep this a secret between me, you and the rest of the rossmoyne population.

moving on! the weather today was gorgeous! although the blanket of clouds didnt clear till evening, but the cool weather was EVERYTHING i wanted. perfect stuff. and i still feel slightly unhappy that we couldnt develop our films, for the 99th time i've said today.

and why oh why do they give us level7 questions in our maths tests when the maximum we can acheive is a 6 ANYWAY? as i've said, i've got limited brain cells.. dont make me exhaust them.

i need pure oxygen.

TWO MORE DAYS TO THE WEEKEND! rock on.. and choir practise tmr shldnt have been cancelled, that just means tonight i have to practise like an absolute nut...

happy 15th feb everyone.

it is a very hot day.

while our supremely slack english teacher cannot tolerate the heat at all, my maths teacher seems to enjoy being in a classroom that can hardly be differentiated from a suana. honestly. and the best part? the aircon in the demountable was NOT working. and all the fans did were circulate hot air around. i really thought it would be better for me to faint because of extreme heat. maybe we shld listen to mrs oh-i'm-so-hot and lodge a complain to the school.

oh well. happy valentine's day, world. i've got a date with my hairdresser later [to cut hair only, nothing else] and then i'm gonna romanticise my piano [at least try to, to avoid sealing my fate on thursday =/] and then have a date with the love of my life! =)

i hope and hope and hope that the rest of the house goes out to celebrate the day with their valentines, leaving me home alone. i promise i wont freak out even after last night's talk about the spirit world and all.

that said and done, i'd better be productive today. maths test, law&com rubbish, chinese notes, THEORY [thats the killer]..whoever said year10 was easy??

i know i've been unfaithful
lovers in line
while You're turning over tables
with the rage of a jealous kind
i chose the gallows to the aisle
thought that love would never find
hanging ropes will never keep You
and Your love of a jealous kind

i should be doing my science assignment. i AM doing my science assignment, but unfortunately, have been distracted by MSN.

sarah, i need to copy some stuff off you on monday morning. please [i said please].

OMG. OMFG.. i just got off the phone with my dad... you know what my mum did?? she told my dad that i want to buy a camera. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? my dad told me that if i tell him the make and model, he'd try to get one for me. SHITES MAN. wth?

i know, you're thinking "LUCKY BUGGER" but that's not the point. i can't decide whether i'm happy or sad. i don't really fancy my dad shelling out so much money to buy ME a camera. i'm not that expensive. on the other hand, it means i'd get my camera sooner. but but but.. i dont want my dad to buy it for me. i think he was kinda put out that i didn't sound as excited as he thought i'd be. i didn't wanna thank him cause that would mean i accept his offer. shiatzors.

ok, off to do homework. cause if i dont finish tonight, i can't play badminton tomorrow. and also, i gotta stay in line so that i can go out on monday night. sigh~ science assignment, chinese notes, law and com? english planning. english test on monday. science test on monday. WHY IS IT THAT EVERY CLASS I HAVE WITH SARAH GIVES ME HOMEWORK? it's all her fault.

i was pretty much getting into the school routine already, until i realised that up until now, i had no assignments, tests or in-class essays to write up.

i just knew there was something about school that made me dislike it very much.

so next week, we have an assignment due monday, 2 tests, and an essay to be written up in a double. wonderful isnt it? i have no idea how i'm gonna manage to space everything out without cramming it all on sunday, which would be nothing short of horrid.

school today was a mixture of laughter...and something else -whats the word now- put it this way, its not too pleasant when you're within earshot of some guy talking to his supposed girlfriend while he's cuddling her.

"you know there's a year 10 dinner dance? ...blablablabla... i was wondering if you would go with me." dude. its at the end of the year.
"but i dont know how to dance." there are better ways of saying NO.

OH the best part came during the slack-off period at english, when karina asks if a gorilla is real, or if its made-up like the ape.

orange karina!!! of course the part when she thought 'casper or jasper, whatever his name is' was among the best looking guys of the bunch was pretty funny too. the gorilla one was still the best though, we cracked up so much XD

of course, 6 periods with kim was pretty much an overdose..thank goodness we were spared from ms yip's wrath, God was really with us man *thank You God*

hokay time to go work my butt off. i really dont want to play tennis later.

why is it that women seem to have the short end of the stick? i mean, i'm not one of those feminists who burn their bras and go around crushing balls... but i think that Eve really screwed up bad when she ate the fruit of wisdom in the garden of Eden so many years ago.

first, we are considered the weaker of the species and are expected to submit to the males who are, by default, the dominant species. HOW SHITTY IS THAT? LIKE HELL WE'RE GONNA BE DOING ALL YOUR DIRTY LAUNDRY FOREVER. wash your own underwear.

but it's not only the housework. it's [you can see this coming] childbirth as well. and THIS responsibility starts waaaaaaaay before we even THINK of having kids - if you know what i mean. crap man. i don't know how much it hurts, but judging by the one childbirth i have been around, i'd say it hurts way more than a kick in arse. and what about all those diseases that seem to affect women waaay more than men.

osteoporosis - 8 million women in america are estimated to be affected. how many men? 2 million. small fry compared to the women. and what about the cancers? women get ovarian cancer - and don't you go telling me that men get it too cause i KNOW they don't. i'm not that dumb. to be fair, men get prostate cancer [which i imagine deflates their ego considerably] but women deal with breast cancer too. hrmm.. actually, mebbe guys can get boob cancer as well. not too sure. some of them definitely need bras, though.

this is a pretty gross post, actually, now that i think about it. but whatever. no one reads this anyway. and what's with women having to be all demure and pretty-looking? that's just unrealistic. i mean, who the hell utters a delicate gasp and faints when they see a mouse nowadays? it's usually "OH SHIT GET THAT THING AWAY FROM ME. DID YOU FRIGGING HEAR ME?"

ahem. alright. maybe i'm slightly feminist. actually, not really. i'm just standing up for the female species. alright, granted i don't exactly fit into the category, but i exhibit enough qualities to be classified LOOSELY into it. sarah, on the other hand, is another story.

i have a sudden urge to cut my hair. apparently my mum's desperate to cut hers too, so we're cutting it tmr, much as we wanted to do so today. so long as the cut doesnt screw up my looks too badly, i'm alright with it. i dont wanna go to faith's wedding looking abnormal.

chinese was good, as usual. photog was good too, just praying that the seemingly nice photos will live up to their reputation and not come out half-mutated or smth. honestly kim, we make a good duo. you spot the shot, i focus it and shoot it. there! the world's a happier place.

the weather this morning was awesome. perfect. cool winds and sun. nothing like the weather ytd, which absolutely scorched and kinda resembled the weather in singapore, with the humidity as well. by the time i reached school i had no mood whatsoever. even kim stayed away [says quite a lot, we dont annoy each other unless we're really in no mood, or one of us is in TNT mode].

i'm tired and i've got work to do. oh well. at least i had a reasonably good night's sleep.

"what's wrong with you? you on drugs or what??"

laughing fits are good.

"God has a sense of humour - He made you and me." -mike

after a whole day out and 3 days of constant activity, i didnt get that wonderful night's rest i needed. so there i was at school half-dying. i dont even know what sustained me. it must be the food. i ate a lot today.

anyway. the resolution to remain hardworking seems to be going well. no copying of homework [unless its an emergency i.e. had no idea there was hmwrk, FORGOT], taking notes in class.. wonderful aint it.

and our english teacher is such a bum. so far the only thing she's made us do in her class is copy stuff on the board and read. she hasnt imparted any of her knowledge to us as yet. terrific stuff.

i'd better go listen to some music to get me outta semi-angsty mode before i start doing my work. i think i'm gonna die by the end of bible study.

we all live in a yellow submarine
yellow submarine
yellow submarine

some people are already whinging about the first week of school. DUDE, three days of school and you think the whole world is out to get you. three days of school and what happens to me? i forget to bring my file to S&E. a record, even for me. so far, the hardest thing for me to do has been getting out of bed.

if you can't wake up in the morning

i've managed to stay on top of my homework. so THERE. before school started, a few people were asking me if i was gonna keep my job. err... DUH! pft. i'm in year ten. what? you think i have a lot to do meh? it's not like my social life is actually ALIVE. and i don't tire that easily, so no worries.

if you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely, can't control it try as you might

my classes are good. i'm pretty happy with my timetable. happy might not be the word, but i am SATISFIED. i mean, i do not see the need to bother mr. rennie with letters regarding subject changes. i've got better things to do. but i see why some people would change their subjects. i wouldn't wanna be stuck in ms.wang's chinese class as form either.

may you find that love that won't leave you
may you find it by the end of the day

so far, the school year has been pretty good. all THREE DAYS of it. i haven't screwed anything up [much], nor have i [majorly] offended anyone. YET. this year is gonna be the best one so far [i'm praying]. not only am i gonna pull my butt off the dinner chair to stay on top of schoolwork, i am ALSO going to go out and play sport. whether it be tennis once a week, or just walking from the couch to the fridge.

you won't be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
something beautiful will come your way

you've never seen a more hardworking sarah-ann lee before.

she comes home at 4, starts doing her work at 4.30, does extra work so she wont have to work so hard during the weekend, gives up late night shopping and a JAPANESE DINNER to stay at home to WORK. and its only the second day of school.

nerd alert.

okay. so maybe i skipped late night shopping cause i knew i'd be tired [like i am now] and i missed dinner cause if i went for dinner i had to go shopping. and i honestly had planned to attempt to finish off my 2 chapters of theory tonight. but dinner [and i endured one hour of hunger pangs for my lasagne] kinda made me sluggish and after finishing [or doing what i could] science, i opened my theory book and stared at it blankly. no inspiration whatsoever to do it. brain dead. and i come back to the comp and i'm angsty and crummy.

i honestly need sleep. school has been drinking my energy. come on, after close to 9 weeks of inactivity you cant expect me to be jumping around after a whole day. maybe i should sleep now. 9.30pm. then maybe i wont wake up late.

i want someone to talk to.

goodbye, goodnight.

things to thank God for on the first day of school: [not ranked whatsoever]

1) i actually woke up on time.
2) i actually reached school on time
3) i'm not in gay form classes [e.g. chinese or PHYS ED]
4) i'm not in amy's photog class. or any of her other classes for that matter, save for chinese, but i dont mind that.
5) we dont have ms wang for chinese anymore [Thank You God]. instead we have this teacher who's bound to make our chinese improve in the year. and shut everyone else in class up, including amy.
6) i'm not in all the same classes as kim. though i'm in 5 of them, but thats not too bad, least we dont get an overdose. [SAME PHOTOG CLASS. ROCK ON.]
7) pretty good locker location.
8) the first day of school was actually not bad. i even have an inner motivation to wanna do well.

i'll add to the list later.

photo-taking tmr..sigh. I HOPE I HOPE I REALLY HOPE it's during phys ed or smth.

HEWITT IS OUT OF THE TOP TEN. baghdatis is 27. clijsters is no.1, followed by mauresmo then davenport. roddick's 3rd, nadal's still 2nd and no one's ever gonna uproot federer from his no.1 spot. safin dropped to 50 though. serena williams also dropped to the low 30s.

and i've got homework to do. fantastic, isnt it! marvellously gorgeous. i'm in the same s&e class as casper and i've got a really eccentric teacher. sigh.

oh well. it was a pretty good first day. now for the remaining 199 days or so...