and i just wanna get mugged at knifepoint
to get cut enough to wake me up
cause i know that i dont wanna die
sitting around watching my life go by

today's a weird day.

feels like i've been taped up. people say its possible to break free in that whole dramatic act, but i'm weak and i know i cant do it. especially not when you're taped up tight. then how? sit and wait for someone to come and rip the tape apart. i wonder if its worse when you're not desperate to undo the tape yourself.

its funny, some people see it, some dont care, some want to help but dont know where to begin. then there are the few who just know exactly what to do. and they act in your best interests, whatever it may be.

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i can finally display my candles. all those hidden beauties..mmm.

i'm taking the kids out in 15. they're younger, so i'm allowed to be charitable to them. they're almost taller than me, yet instead of looking down on me, they look up. i have a personal mission to camwhore as much as possible with them. whoring is always fun and very very retarded. with the 3 of us, that's highly possible.

its an average day for now.