one thing made me smile on the inside today.

she wasnt feeling great at first, and i kinda knew it; though i didnt ask. she lacked the sparkle in her eye and her bounce.

later through some miracle called a boyfriend, she was her usual self again.

i signaled to her to ask if she was okay. she came over and gave me her warm, genuine smile and replied in a happy nod. "i'm okay now. but just now i was really not okay."

i told her i thought she wasnt fine. just had a hunch.

she gave me one of her hugs. one of those hugs that carried a message inside them. and she said, still hugging me,

"i know you know."

then she was back to normal. i didnt need to know what was bothering her. i just needed to know something did.

you really cant be happy when you know one of your friends isnt. and when you know they're genuinely happy when you're not, it makes you smile on the inside. and its a really nice feeling.

dont know why but typing this made me tear.

i like the rain. i want to sit out there in the pouring rain and let it wash over me.

i'll do that when i wont get killed by my parents for doing so. one day, one day.