lately the weather has been so bi-polar
and consequently, so have i

ahaha, i wonder if i'm in a worse state than i perceive myself to be in. or maybe i've grown so accustomed to not being concerned about myself.

if a metal loses its shine, will the metal itself know? or will the whole world just notice its dullness? will the metal just sit there thinking its still shiny until someone decides to polish it up good so that it really is shiny again?

i did some work today. i'm gonna make green tea ice cream later. i will finish what i have set out to do today. no more 3.45s.