its the worst feeling when someone tells you you need to put in more effort, and you know it's true.
when you hear that exasperated tone in their voice.
when they hoped for more than just that.
when you disappoint someone.

i wish i could push myself more, but its hard going forward without a driving force.

26 september. i will make it. even if it takes hours and hours of frustration and tears, sweat and blood.

it sucks when reality sets in and you realize you're letting yourself and those around you down by not doing your best.